The Revelation of Anna

Well, this is my first blog and I am honestly not yet comfortable sitting here spilling my guts about various topics right here for all to see.  However, I want to be.  I titled this blog “I’m just a girl….” because through all the life decisions, changes, happenstances, and wrong turns I have made in my 26 years of life, I have landed on a path that may seem odd to others but is TRUTH to me.  Sometimes, I think about where I am and what I do and I think why me?…but at the end of the day I realize I am just a girl who one day at the right time happened to pass by and look into the eyes of the one who was seeking me. You see I didn’t realize at the time that He was seeking me, but now 5 years after our meeting I know that the timing of our glances was truly divine and set me on a course that somehow I knew would be my life.  You may realize now that I am not talking about just anyone, but a true King, a Righteous Warrior, One who wears the title “King of Kings, and Lord of Lords”.  I know you may be thinking “Oh great…one of those religious freaks!”  or “Another Hippie for Jesus”.  Well I have to tell you that if “religious” to you is laying down my life for His Will….then yes I am religious.  But please don’t make “laying down my life” a cliche like many so-called Christians have done in the past.  I know some of you are a little upset because I called you “so-called Christians” but I have been one of you too.  I have played on both sides of this fence, but we’ll get to that in a later post.  The point is that I am just an ordinary girl who grew up with a pretty good family within the Bible Belt, went to college, got a degree, got married, and had a good career.  Yet somewhere in the living of the ordinary “American Dream”  I got sadly disappointed and longed for something more.  And somehow I ended up here, living this life, making this life-decision literally every day, and yet knowing that I have accomplished more in these few years of ministry than most do in a lifetime.  Some of you may be thinking “Oh, she is a missionary in some foreign country.”  and my answer would be yes and no.  I am a missionary but I am called to an unusual place…..the church.  Not a building or even a particular denomination (which has become our way of identifying church) but to the REAL church.  The one that Jesus calls His true Bride, the one that lives inside of each one of us, and the one that truly lives the life of “Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.”  I want to be apart of that Bride, pure and blameless before a Holy King.  I want to be persuaded like the disciples who when Jesus said, “Leave everything and follow me” they left with no hesitation and ended up living a life that cost them life itself.  So what is my mission, well my mission is you, the church.  And don’t think it is just you, but myself too.  Like I said earlier, I have to make this life-decision each day…do I want to live for myself or live for this Jesus.  Are there times when I want to run away and seek “normal life”?  Yes…but eventually I know it will not satisfy.  Do I fail everyday in my pursuit of knowing Him?  Yes….there is no outline of how to do this.  Do I see His heart for His true Bride, His true Church?  Yes…and that alone can make me pursue longer.   So, like I said earlier I am just an ordinary girl, now seeking the Real Jesus, holding on to His truths, and pursuing a life that He has already laid before me, trying to take up my cross DAILY as Paul states.  And well now blogging about it for anyone who wants to read.  This blog will discuss many things…..basically about life, the struggles, the disappointments, the joys, the glory, and most importantly how to live this “ordinary life” unto a King.  It may not be perfect, but it is definitely a journey of pursuit.